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[23 Apr 2004|11:40pm] |
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Well.. tomorrow is prom. I'm excited.. so we'll see how things go. I might post pictures after i get them.. we'll see.
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[21 Apr 2004|06:31am] |
WWE and Steve Austin part ways
After months of negotiations, the WWE and Steve Austin have been unable to come to terms on a new contract and as a result have mutually agreed to part company.
Both parties have left the door open to work together again in the future and the WWE wishes Steve the very best in his future endeavors.
I think.. im gonna cry. :(
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[12 Apr 2004|10:16pm] |
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When i used to listen to love songs, i would suddenly get depressed.. But now, when i listen to them. I don't. I remain happy. Does this mean that i'm in love? Hmm.. im not totally sure but if im not in love yet.. im definitely sure on my way.
I found this saved on my computer.. I can almost say yes to every thing in this.. I'll bold the things that are true in my case just for the hell of it. :) It's kinda long, so if you dont wanna read it.. then just X now. :) mkthx.
"You know you're in love when you can say anything to the person and you know they won't laugh at you.
When you can see their face when you close your eyes. When you can still feel their arms around you
Holding you tight long after they are gone. When you can still taste their kiss after you have said goodbye.
You can tell you're in love when you miss them before they are gone. When their voice lingers in your ears.
When their presence eases any pain. When their name sends chills down your spine.
When they are the only thing you can think about. You know you're in love when you can see all their hopes
And dreams and there soul when you look into their eyes. When their tears stain not only your shirt,
but also on your heart. When you are hurt just because of these tears. When even a simple chore done with them
Can become a lasting memory. Ultimately, you know you're in love when you can't imagine living without them,
And can't figure, how did you live before you knew them. When they fulfill every need and without them
You are incomplete. The love of someone else completes the heart, and soul, and mind all at once."
Pretty good i think. I can just say that i'm a lot happier in this relationship than in my previous one.
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[11 Apr 2004|10:11pm] |
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Yesterday was one month for me and kyle. I went over his house last night to find his room extremely clean.. bed made.. and a single rose, and my favorite chocolates (kisses with almonds, and a musketeer bar ) laying by his bed. I swear, he is the sweetest. and then his mommy comes in and gives me a Pink stuffed bunny. she's too sweet. :)
blah, i have a headache.
i watched honey today. EXCELLENT movie. if you havent seen it, i highly suggest you do. Jessica alba is so sexy. whew.. im so jealous of her and "Honey's" personality. best personality ever.
Happy easter everyone..
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[02 Apr 2004|06:21pm] |
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Yes so im eating golden grahams.. with no milk. And it's pretty tasty. Im pretty bored waiting for my mom to get home so i can go to courtney's house. I mean damn.. i need a fucking car. like now. im so tired of depending on my mom all the time.. I always have to ask her to use her car.. and then sometimes she says no. GAHH. it sucks.
now.. my life revolves around kyle. and that could be a good thing or a bad thing. but thats why im having a girls night tonight.
im not an obsessive girlfriend or anything, but usually everyday when kyle gets home from practice he texts me or calls me to let me know hes home and to tell me to get online to talk to him.. well today, i was sitting around for three hours for him. And so iget online.. and he left me 6 messages. He got home at 3:45. and here it was after 5 and i was waiting for his ass to call me. for some reason, i got so pissed. he said he thought i would be asleep and he didnt wanna wake me. but he's so sweet.. and he blamed himself and said sorry like a million times, and then i felt bad for yelling at him. i dont know what im doing in this relationship. he's a freshman.. im a senior.. and i REALLY like him, and im really trying to make this work. we do get along and all.. but i just dont know with summer coming up and all.
Today ive just been really frustrated.. and then lately ive been thinking im fat. which is so terrible cause im 5'5 and like 110lbs. i mean maybe its cause i wanna look right in a bathing suit this year. but then i realized.. that im not. fucking crooked back.. fucking scoliosis makes one hip go in, and the other not go in. nobody can really notice it. but i can, and thats all that matters. Gah..
Prom's coming up.. Every says its a night to remember.
It better be a god damn night to remember..
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| ..because you love me like i am. |
[22 Mar 2004|07:31pm] |
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Alright.. well tonight, i think im actually going to watch RAW. :) It's supposed to be good.. so yess. im watching it.
I seriously.. seriously.. CANNOT wait till Summer. I mean, im going to miss high school, i really am. But i think things will be good. My last day of school is May 28th, and i gradute June 2nd. It's getting down to the wire.. :)
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| i hope you need this now, cause i know i still do... |
[16 Mar 2004|09:49pm] |
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Well, I have a prom date. :) Yesss... It's Kyle. My boyfriend. wow.. so weird to say that.
Anyways, my back is KILLING me.. I'll post pics of my prom dress later.
Night all. <3
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| Ladies is pimps too, go on brush ya shouldas off.. |
[13 Mar 2004|11:20am] |
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I absolutely love lyrics. If you find the right one, they say the words that you can't say. It's like.. your feeling some way, but you can't just express it with words, and then you find lyrics that say exactly how you feel and your like damn.. yes. I tend to look at lyrics before i listen to songs now..
Yeah, my ex has been trying to talk to me again. I mean, we were dating for a year, he cheated on me and was a complete asshole to me, and after we broke up back in september.. it took me FOREVER to get over him. And then he decides to move on and he found a new girlfriend, and i was ok with that. And now, when i decide to move on and get a new boyfriend, he begins coming back into my life.. He drops by unexpectantly, IMs me all the time, and calls me at 2:30 in the morning. I mean, he even told me yesterday that if he can't have me than nobody else can. can we say PSYCHO? But then, I found these lyrics, and sent them to him..
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
And he was like.. aw man, that's so sad. Haha, yet another thing lyrics said for me when i couldn't find the right words. :)
..well it's off to go look for a job. :-/ I should have SO much fun....
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| there's only one thing i can't live without.. you. |
[10 Mar 2004|07:46pm] |
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Well.. it's official, me and kyle are together. Not too exciting news, but it's news. And i'm jamming to rascal flatts.. hmm. so happy for some reason.
Baseball season is here.. and i'm the manager. Just like i was the manager of basketball, and got to see all the sexy players everyday, i get to see my baseball buddies in tight sexy baseball pants. I cannot wait. Most of my guy friends play baseball, so it's gonna be so fun. I can't wait till next week..
Lin.. after reading your little wrestlemania reminders, lol i've decided im going to watch it. ;] I mean you just can't miss WM. :D I am crossing my fingers for my jeffy-poo to come back. :)
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| When it seemed all my dreams were falling through, that's when i found you. |
[07 Mar 2004|12:42am] |
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Wow.. it's been awhile. And not too much has happened, unfortunately.
What's the point in having a boyfriend? i mean cause I have kyle, but i'm holding out on going out with him officially because of some reason. I'm not quite sure. What's the point of dating, when there's going to be a break up? Somebody's going to get hurt in the end.. And i mean, why go through that? Why have labels of boyfriend girlfriend? I already know Kyle isn't going to be with anyone else, or do anything with anyone else.. and he knows im not going to do the same thing. I'm not holding off because i want someone else.. but then again, what happens if i make him wait this whole time.. and then find someone better? Wow.. Maybe i should just go out with him and see how things go. He does make me so happy and i love that. I guess i'm just really confused as to what i want right now.. Guess i need more time to think about it.
Well, i'm so very tired. ..I'll post some pictures tomorrow, too tired to do it now. Good night all.
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| ....she bangs, she bangs.. oh baby when she moves, she moves. ;] |
[28 Feb 2004|12:58am] |
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MY ICON! HAHAHAHA. Best icon in the world. I seen it and HAD to take it. i credited the person i stole it from though.
Anyways, better day. Me and kyle went to the mall and the movies. Aw, whenever i kissed his head or cheek in the movies, he would just smile away, and finally i asked him why he smiled all the time.. and he said, because i just love being with you. Too sweet. :)
Well, i'm so extra tired.. so it's off to bed.
"..I tried my hardest, and I have no regrets."
-William Hung. :]
hah he's so great.
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| ...And when I feel like I'm shit out of luck, I find my stupified, coming back again |
[26 Feb 2004|08:25pm] |
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Well yeah. Ohio was alright. Funeral was long and boring.. the guy talked too much, i almost fell asleep. and i've found out something.. my family is REALLY short.
Today.. not really a good day. I mean, i got to see kyle and in class we went to subway for lunch.. but i think im PMSing REAL bad. I've been so bitchy and annoyed and just irritated today. it's even pissing myself off.. i don't know what the hell is wrong me. Damn you Eve for picking that fucking apple.
anyways.. so the doctor says my back pains aren't from my scoliosis, he says i have 'sore traps' WTF? how are my shoulder muscles sore.. when I DO ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. He said in weight training class i should do shrugs. oh hell no.. i only work out when i feel like it, and when someone doesn't tell me what work out to do.
OMG. I hate PMS. I hate being a girl. I hate bleeding for five days straight once a month. I hate the way guys affect me. I just hate.. ughh everything right now.
GRRR. i feel like ripping somebody's head off right now.
Hmm.. where's my sister.
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| ....i relate to you naturally, everybody else just fades away. |
[21 Feb 2004|11:07pm] |
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with you // jessica simpson |
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i can't get enough of this song, it's great. it's even my ringer on kyle's phone for when i call him. :D
anyways, yeah so my mom tells me last night that we are leaving sunday morning for ohio because my dad's uncle died. ok, keep in mind that ohio is 7 freaking hours from where i live, in maryland. 7 hours in a car. damn, i hate the drive up there. it's soo long. but i'm riding with my uncle, and he has tv's in his car, so that should make things a little easier. and i'll be missing school monday, which means i'll be missing art. YES.
today, knowing i was leaving early tomorrow.. me and kyle went to subway. <3 i adore subway, i have been craving it all week. then we went to target and wal mart and did the fun stuff there. i just love being with him, he makes me so happy. and as candis says.. ' He's a keeper. '
..it's about damn time.
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| ...when your tears are fallin', i will hear your spirit callin' |
[19 Feb 2004|08:34pm] |
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OMFG... OMG.. My mom was cleaning, and she picked up a B2k cd case, and out fell three cds. Backstreet boys ( the 1st one ), Britney Spears ( The 2nd one ), and HANSON. ( the original one.. the first one. ) I screamed. I was SO happy. I am jamming to them right now, This cd is so fucking awesome. You just don't understand.. i am so ecstatic right now.
HANSON.. YESSSSSS. ;]
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| ....So here i am with open arms, Hoping you'll see what your love means to me |
[18 Feb 2004|10:28pm] |
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yesss. pancakes at 10:40 pm are the best. I just got home, and my dad had a craving for pancakes.. so of course, i had to have some too. and, it was extra yummy.
today.. didn't go to school because i had a dentist appointment at 11, so my mom said i didn't have to go. yesss.
wow.. im super tired. and this post was pointless, but hmm.. oh well. :]
Oh yeah and remember, when life gets you down, eat pancakes. :] works for me.
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| ...whip cream with cherries, strawberries on top |
[14 Feb 2004|04:19pm] |
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Happy Valentine's day everyone. Hope you share it with someone special.
I'll post again later with a edit after my night with kyle.
<3
EDIT
my valentine's day didn't suck like it usually does. it consisted of me wearing a huge gardening hat in target, spilling my fries and drink all over the floor in arby's, naming all the pokemon i could off of a pokemon game in KB toys, getting stuck inside a little kid's ride in the middle of the mall while it spinned around, and kissing kyle in the wawa parking lot. it was fun, im really happy.. and im really tired. so, good night everyone.
..oh, and a special happy valentine's day to my special valentine Lindze. Hope you had a good day. :)
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| ...sometimes it's hard to breathe, just knowing you found me. |
[12 Feb 2004|09:18pm] |
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Cause with you
I can let my hair down
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me right before I hit the ground
With nothing but a t-shirt on,
I've never felt so beautiful...
Valentines day.. exactly 2 days away. And i really thought it was going to suck this year. But, thankfully.. it's already looking good. Me and kyle have plans to do something, but today Danny and Mike asked me to hang out. Hmm..
But oh man.. today, Kyle gave me those kissing bears from Hallmark, that when they kiss, the girl bear's cheeks light up red. .. and he got me a bag of hershey kisses with almonds.. my favorite. he's so sweet. and i love him to death for that.
Why is it that when i had a boyfriend on valentine's day last year.. it sucked. but this year, being single.. and it's not even v-day yet, I'm so happy. wow.. i really am happy.
It's about damn time.
i love this song.
You speak and it's like a song
And just like that all my walls come down
It's like a private joke just meant for us to know
I relate to you naturally
Everybody else just fades away
Sometimes it's hard to breathe
Just knowing you found me...
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| ...show me some love, strip off your clothes and take off your socks. |
[09 Feb 2004|10:10pm] |
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well. i found out today that my back pains ive been having, are because i have minor scoliosis. and i have to go through physical therapy. GREAT.
anyways. basketball game tonight.. we won. YESS. my school's basketball team so kicks ass. :D
joe looked extra cute at the game tonight.. but im beginning to feel more like we're best friends rather than me wanting him. and that is a good thing, cause i really do think i like kyle. he's so sweet. he sent me an im sorry card because he was being jealous and was mad at me at the game. ;x
i need some sweetness in my life.
gahhh.. headache's suck major ass.
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